Monday, February 7, 2011

Heavy Hearted Today

It's Monday and I'm in a very BLAH kind of mood. The weather outside is icky, supposed to be rainy/ snowy all day. My reasons for being heavy hearted are:

Friday I am supposed to go to Memphis for my cousin's wedding reception. I like his girlfriend just fine but I feel the whole hurry up and get married thing is being rushed for no particular reason... They are both young (24), they have both been married before, she has a kid, they are moving in with her parents because they can't afford their own place... all the factors just seem to spell disaster... My cousin lost his dad (my mom's brother) this past September and he just seems to wander with this lost puppy look on his face... I just don't feel in my gut that this is the answer... So it makes my heart hurt...

#2 for heavy heart
Found out last night a really good friend of mine is being deployed again for a year. This time he is being sent to Afghanistan - leaves June 9th. :( He has been home approx 2 1/2 yrs from his last year long deployment to Kosovo. He's still practically a newlywed (married 1 year this past Oct) and he and his wife had just decided to try to start getting pregnant... now meaning she may be doing pregnancy / and/ or newborn baby by herself for a little bit depending on when they get pregnant...

I just have to keep reminding myself that God's timing is perfect and that his plan is not my plan... but it still makes my heart heavy ...

Monday, January 3, 2011


Happy New Year
A New Year is here - I love the idea of fresh starts and new beginnings :)

This also brings a new school year for me (mine begin in Feb) and it is also
the FINAL school year for me... Countdown to Dec 3, 2011 GRADUATION

This is also a time to set goals and dreams for 2011, so here goes
(in no particular order)

To be a better student
to be a better girlfriend
to be more patient
to be a better sister/ daughter/ cousin (etc)
to be intentional in setting time for relationships
to take more me time
to give more God time
to make better eating choices
to cook more
to set aside more gym time
to give more time to my friends
to send more cards
to blog more
to save more money

ok that's all for now :)
Here's to HIGH hopes for 2011